decisions, decisions

i'm reconsidering my decision on not going to Italy. it's killing me. and i'm reminded of it everyday, everywhere i go. since this country is so obsessed with everything Italian, apparently. and every time i see or here or eat anything Italian, i get really sad knowing that i'm not going there this summer. so that's why i'm reconsidering.
and to make it even worse for myself, i started looking at my Italian dictionary last night. i read it and said lines out loud for like an hour. then i decided to watch Eat Pray Love. you know, just to torture myself. i just about cried during the Italy part. I WANT TO GO SOOOO BAD!!!! wahhhhhh!!!! :'(
unfortunately, plane tickets are way more expensive now than they were in January. but i figure, if i do go, i can maybe get a job over the summer and in Utah while i'm at school and then i'll earn the money back in no time!

anyone have any advice for me?? just tell me what to do!!!!!

and, thought i'd throw in a picture from the Sartorialist of a few attractive Milanese guys ;)
this is reason enough for me to go! haha!