here we go again

i didn't want to come back. i was scared this was going to happen. and it did. after being home in California for three weeks for Christmas break, i didn't want to leave. i cried myself to sleep the night before my flight in the morning. but it is what it is. this is my job. if i want to go to college and Italy this year, then i need to keep nannying to save money. and luckily my aunt and uncle FINALLY got internet! this way i won't be as miserable, bored, and disconnected. that makes it a little easier to be here.
after Steven and Holden picked me up from the airport, we came home and Holden started helping me to unpack. talking nonstop of course, because he's a six year old boy who just got a bunch of cool new stuff for Christmas! Carrie and Mackenna came home a bit later from the store. Holden announced "Mackenna! Kiana's here!!" and when i appeared at the top of the stairs to say hi to her, she froze and just stared at me. like a deer in the headlights. she was so shocked and surprised to see me and she didn't know how to react or what to do. it was so funny! she wouldn't talk to me for a while cuz she was still a little freaked out (for some reason i don't know). but thankfully she got over it soon and wouldn't stop talking to me either. it made me happy :) i missed her little voice!